the thing that i need
NEED. such a little word. yet, such an elaborate concept. what do i really need? too often, i play pretty fast and loose with that word. i need a break. i need that necklace. i need that [insert name of newest and coolest thing here] i need to work out more. i need a burger. i need more money. i need a vacation. i need those shoes. and on and on and on... but, what do i really need?
time for a bit of biblical recalibration. [yet again] rachel, what you really need is Christ. Christ alone. once again, i was inspired by the lyrics of dc*b. [i know that i have posted excessively about dc*b...but, i am an unabashed fan. deal with it people. plus, they debuted at #2 on billboard's top 200. nestled between adele and the black keys. awesome. so, this is kind of like a tribute/congratulatory post.]
anyway...
as i listened to let me feel you shine this morning, i couldn't help but turn it up extra loud and hit the repeat button. i just sang it at the top of my lungs. my completely undignified and not-so-quiet quiet time with God. just me and Jesus...and the buddies who had the distinct pleasure of witnessing this display [i am pretty sure i saw charlie give coco a sideways glance as if to say "there she goes again..."]
this is my most ardent plea and veritable declaration:
this place is trying to break my belief. but my faith is bigger than all i can see. what i need is redemption. what i need is for You for to put me back on my feet. i swear i'm trying to give everything. but i feel i'm falling, oh make me believe. what I need is resurrection. what I need is for You to put me back on my feet. i lift the knife to the thing i love most. praying You'll come so i can have both. what i need is for You to touch me. what i need is for You to be the thing that i need. if i could feel You shine your perpetual light. then maybe i could crawl out of this tonight. if i could feel You feel You shine, oh let me feel You shine. so beautiful and warm, so beautiful and bright. like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky, oh let me feel You shine.
{what i need is for You to be the thing that i need}